Life is not simple or straight forward of that I’m pretty sure.
I can’t say who God is – not comprehensively, he’s just too incomprehensible for that.
I’ve experienced how he can demolish. How he can bring stuff to a sudden and very real death – stuff I thought he’d never demolish.
It is a bit surprising when he destroys where I thought he would build & grow.
It stops me in my tracks & reminds me that we are two very different beings.
I’ve been immensily angry at Him, about stuff he evaporated and demolished, suddenly, in places I was doing whatever I can to build.
Sometimes, I think, he sees a bigger picture than I do.
Sometimes, I think, it is just the brokenness of this life.
And often I have no idea how he thinks and why he does what he does.
But I do know this – he shares my life, thank God. And what he chooses and does, it is his choice & action exactly so that we may share life.