Life is not simple or straight forward of that I’m pretty sure.

I can’t say who God is – not comprehensively, he’s just too incomprehensible for that.

I’ve experienced how he can demolish. How he can bring stuff to a sudden and very real death – stuff I thought he’d never demolish.

It is a bit surprising when he destroys where I thought he would build & grow.

It stops me in my tracks & reminds me that we are two very different beings.

I’ve been immensily angry at Him, about stuff he evaporated and demolished, suddenly, in places I was doing whatever I can to build.

Sometimes, I think, he sees a bigger picture than I do.

Sometimes, I think, it is just the brokenness of this life.

And often I have no idea how he thinks and why he does what he does.

But I do know this – he shares my life, thank God. And what he chooses and does, it is his choice & action exactly so that we may share life.


8 thoughts on “demolished

  1. but do you think that there is a mutual reciprocity in this as well? does god always sit in the seat of the executor of these events? then does the relationship seem not heavily skewed and disparate? even irreconcilably unaligned? is it perhaps that we are to accept this by faith and find our own equilibrium in it? if so, is this fair and good? to me this is not at all an easy thought process to navigate (let alone live it out). perhaps we need to rethink our theology? maybe it’s completely different to this? what if god is not the person we want to believe him to be, need him to be? if we re-looked at this what might we find?

  2. this might be fuel for another discussion completely, but maybe life is simple and straight forward… maybe it’s our theology that complicates it all, complicates us all? maybe we need to ditch our theology a bit? it’s our feelings in a given context/event that cause us pain and frustration. maybe it’s our theology that complicates our feelings? what if we don’t stop feeling but try to embrace change, or rather try to challenge the context of our feelings? if our departure point is possibly skewed surely our feelings about it all are scuttled before we even begin?

  3. Beautifully said and makes me think of Psalm 103 (Message):
    A David Psalm
    1-2 O my soul, bless God. From head to toe, I’ll bless his holy name!
    O my soul, bless God,
    don’t forget a single blessing!

    3-5 He forgives your sins—every one.
    He heals your diseases—every one.
    He redeems you from hell—saves your life!
    He crowns you with love and mercy—a paradise crown.
    He wraps you in goodness—beauty eternal.
    He renews your youth—you’re always young in his presence.

    6-18 God makes everything come out right;
    he puts victims back on their feet.
    He showed Moses how he went about his work,
    opened up his plans to all Israel.
    God is sheer mercy and grace;
    not easily angered, he’s rich in love.
    He doesn’t endlessly nag and scold,
    nor hold grudges forever.
    He doesn’t treat us as our sins deserve,
    nor pay us back in full for our wrongs.
    As high as heaven is over the earth,
    so strong is his love to those who fear him.
    And as far as sunrise is from sunset,
    he has separated us from our sins.
    As parents feel for their children,
    God feels for those who fear him.
    He knows us inside and out,
    keeps in mind that we’re made of mud.
    Men and women don’t live very long;
    like wildflowers they spring up and blossom,
    But a storm snuffs them out just as quickly,
    leaving nothing to show they were here.
    God’s love, though, is ever and always,
    eternally present to all who fear him,
    Making everything right for them and their children
    as they follow his Covenant ways
    and remember to do whatever he said.

    19-22 God has set his throne in heaven;
    he rules over us all. He’s the King!
    So bless God, you angels,
    ready and able to fly at his bidding,
    quick to hear and do what he says.
    Bless God, all you armies of angels,
    alert to respond to whatever he wills.
    Bless God, all creatures, wherever you are—
    everything and everyone made by God.
    And you, O my soul, bless God!

  4. but is it really God that does that? personally, i don’t think so. this universe is governed by positive and negative. our world is the school for soul. everything is in balance. these are the universal laws of nature in this physical plane. the rules of engagement. how would we learn if there were no challenges? how would our souls evolve in order to get back to God?
    there are no victims, we should not see ourselves as being victims, but instead we should try and see how we can evolve from any given challenge.

    • hey friendly people – wow! this is the MOST response EVER to any of my posts, so I love it. thank you for sharing in it & for engaging it. I’m honest about it, this is ‘faith’ and it is very existential, it comes not only from ‘experiences’, but also from how I’ve made sense of those experiences. Perhaps I’m schizophrenic, perhaps I’m actually in relationship with a God who is a person does stuff. 🙂

  5. i might get stoned for saying what i’m about to say, but this also comes from personal experience so here goes.

    i don’t think God is an outside source. i think the only way to reach God is through an inward journey. if our souls are atoms in God’s body, it stands to reason that we can only reach that source through an inward journey.

    think about it, how many times do we hear that Jesus lives in our hearts. why is that? that inner voice, the one that you hear deep inside, not your emotions, not your mind, but that feeling you get when certain situations arise, that is the clue. and by journeying inwards, breaking through all those layers of this emotional body, only there can you experience God.

    but thats just my take on it.. 😉

  6. “atoms in God’s body” …. perhaps another ‘lateral’ possibility could be that the “flesh” that the word became (Jn1.14) does point to the human person of Jesus the Christ (as most orthodox theology believes) but it could equally be pointed directly at us – those of us humans who received an effectual, practical understanding of, and exercise (by faith) the presence of God in and through us? the body of Christ on earth in time and space. …. maybe we have overemphasized the historical ‘icon’ of the human Jesus and pitched an iconic tent for his incarnation 2000 years ago at the expense of his incarnation in the eternal present? (Björn, maybe you and I can dodge the stones side by side?) 🙂

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