For thirteen years now, every day, I’ve said these words: ‘I love you. Unconditionally. For ever & ever. No matter what happens.’
At first, I uttered them fumblingly.
Whispering them in the soul of my new-born son who could not grasp any of it, except perhaps drinking the emotion.
Knowing this was something to be declared.
Something for which I longed.
Then as time went by, more boldly I declared the same, to our daughters.
Eventually even saying it to my Zuko.
And then to me.
For I discovered & was taught, by these beautiful few who surrounded my fragile being like guardians, that love begins inside.
When I am able to see beyond the expectations & demands placed upon me as I was growing up.
When I am able to escape the forest of trees, unintentionally sown by generations.
It begins hesitatingly.
And now, I say it still.
‘I love you. Unconditionally. For ever & ever. No matter what happens.’
With more conviction.
Living it as well.
Discovering it, as moments flow into a life time.
As the value of my ‘self’ & those fabulous people I meet, become more evident in the sunlight of this Love.
Not a something done, but a Someone whispering, perhaps all along, also in my being, even as my own soul could not grasp the depth of these words, but could taste the truth & the emotion.